break in the new (life)

my mom said something really great the other day. "sometimes, decisions cannot be weighed by their morality. sometimes they are just decisions. there is no good or bad."

and that's just about how i feel lately. i don't think anything i did would have mattered in terms of the good or bad. the end result is the same, regardless. and i guess it's just coming to terms with that. i can be mature about it. i know i can do that. i know i'm good at that.

i've spent most of my saturday and sunday indoors and there was something incredibly refreshing about it. i think i might actually enjoy being alone (for once) and have taken it for granted. i've been able to watch a lot of things i've been meaning to get around to, read a lot of books and articles i never had the time for, listen to albums i downloaded months ago. the whole thing was a breath of fresh air. a new start/life/me, if you will!

my current dream is to learn to play the guitar so i can play this song. anyway, i will take this moment to announce my temporary hiatus from facebook! i fear i spend too much time on it (nonsensically playing games) so i decided to see how my life goes without it for a while! wish me luck.