what was i thinking?

avoiding homework

Skyrim is awesome.

 

I'm totally a cat!! I have sweet sneak ability and am robbing old ladies like nothin'.

Trying to do homework right now instead of playing buuuuuut it calls me! The dragon, that is!

realization

everything is meaningless.

for a moment, consider this: is there a real sense of what is good and what is evil? this idea of morality is completely socially constructed, imbedded into our minds from the moment we are born. as an example, consider death. while on one hand we perceive death as being cruel and mysterious, if it's at the hands of God on a person that has committed some kind of egregious act like murder then it's suddenly justified. why do we think this way? why do we live this way? the rules of nature do not abide by such rules because they are not true. nothing is true except this.

there are actions. things that are done. things that we do. even passive resistance is an action. and there are actions as a result of other actions. there is no good or bad. there is only it-- the act itself.

so to even ask if there is a meaning is simply absurd because it doesn't matter. actions will follow after death. the cycle continues. it does not end. and even at our own perceived end it still continues. forever and ever and ever.

da tings in rife

Today I found out that Naked Juice is owned by Pepsi. And Odwalla is owned by Coca Cola.

And then I went to class and fully realized that I cannot write kanji but I can read it pretty well. Which would be fine if most of our quizzes weren't dependent on our ability to write AND read. I'm going to fail and I'm beginning to worry.

Then I finished Fox Girl, which was incredibly sad until the end, where I just sat and said "hrmph. What the fuck." Pretty disappointed. No spoilers here though.

Then I came home! And watched X-Files. Then Dan came over with chijimi he made. And we watched a little bit of this movie.



He had to leave before we finished it and I'm almost done watching it now. Disappointed because it was listed on Hulu as "Horror/Suspense" but it's really neither. Just a story about a crazy dude that does a pretty horrible thing just to see if he can. Reminded me of this movie: Henry: Portrait of a Serial Killer



(probably one of my favorite movies of all time).